I'm just tired...

I'm just tired of being sad.
I'm just tired of being lonely.
I'm just tired of understanding others.
I'm just tired of everything.


I just want to be happy.
I just want to be with everyone.
I just want to understand them.
But why am I still tired?

Bad day...

I should be smiling.
I should be happy.
But why am I carrying a heavy heart again?
It hurts, it really hurts so bad.


I need air, I can’t breathe.
I want to stare up the sky and cry.
Feeling so empty right now.
So lonely, so sad. A bad day.


Full of pain and frustrations.
Trying to hide it all by myself.
I want to be strong but I’m tired.
Let me just give up now.

Last Night

Unplanned movie date with the gang.

Watched "Last Night" starring Piolo Pascual and Toni Gonzaga last Wednesday.

Again, hindi talaga ako mahilig ng Filipino movies pero dahil sa libre ito, nanood ako. Iba din kasi yung convincing powers ng mga kasama ko that time. Hahaha!

Unlike sa mga kasama ko, no idea ako tungkol saan 'tong movie na 'to na kahit nga trailer hindi ko nga napanood. I can't even remember kung saan ko lang nakita yung official poster nila at ang alam ko lang ay kung sino ang mga lead artists here. Basta sinabi lang nila na about sa pag-suicide thingy at si Bella Padilla ang scriptwriter (oh well, I like Bella and avid fan niya ang kasama kong isa, hindi makakaila. Hahaha!).

Quick dinner with (left to right) Josela, Me, Ericka and Ate Maricel.

SPOILER ALERT: (Bawal magalit sakin dahil nagwarning ako.)

GHOST SI CARMINA / JENNIFER / ELISE (O ELOISE???)
EWAN, BASTA MULTO NA SIYA SA SIMULA PA LANG. HAHAHA!

Napaka-unpredictable ng story. Sa una talaga nakakaboring siya kasi puro about pagpapakamatay ang usapan nila. Nakakatawa yung ibang scenes pero lahat nashookt nung mumu pala 'tong si Carmina. Medyo nahalata ko nang may iba sa character ni Toni. At least, di mo aakalain yung twist ng storya. Good job everyone! Great movie Bela Padilla.

乾杯!!!

(photo credits: CNN Philippines and Google) :D



/akrl 

100 Tula Para Kay Stella

Sa totoo lang hindi naman talaga ako nanonood ng Filipino Movies sa Cinema. Hindi naman sa ayokong tangkilikin ang sariling atin pero hindi ko lang talaga feel gumastos noon. Don't bash me. Siguro may kanya kanya lang talagang trip ang bawat tao. Naaalala ko lang na pinanood ko ay Heneral Luna na super mura lang ang ticket price at Kimmy Dora na libre lang ng sister ko.


At dahil mahilig din ako sumulat ng mga tula, mostly nga post ko dito sa blog ko ay poems. Kapansin pansin naman, hindi ba? Hahaha. Dahil na rin sa magagandang reviews na nabasa ko. Niyaya ko friend ko panoorin ang 100 Tula Para kay Stella. Hindi na ko magbibigay ng reviews about the movie. Basta all in all, makakarelate naman talaga ang karamihan lalo na sa mga maaagang nainlove.

SPOILER ALERT: (Bawal magalit sakin dahil nagwarning ako.)

HINDI NAGKATULUYAN SI

STELLA AT FIDEL.

IBA NAKATULUYAN NI STELLA!!!

WALANG BIRO, AYAW TUMIGIL NG LUHA KO. ANG SHAKIT BESH.

AKIN KA NA LANG FIDEL. MAGSULATAN TAYO NG TULA. LOL. :D

  

CHEERS!!!




/akrl 

B. A. B. Y. Driver

BABY'S REAL NAME IS "MILES"

A must watch and highly recommended movie indeed. 

It was so incredible and unique.

Ansel Elgort is such a great actor. Oh well, I mean, they are all so good.

And I want to know the complete soundtrack of this movie.

Oh! By the way, I'm planning to watch it again.

Go watch Baby Driver!!!

Don't worry, I won't tell you the ending. Hahaha. 

INTENSE

MUSIC

ACTION

FUN/COMEDY

ROMANCE

FRIENDSHIP

TRUST

ART

/akrl

Mind

Mind, do not tell anyone.
And just keep it to yourself.
Be quiet this time.
And don't let anyone knows what you feel right now.


It's hard but stop thinking.
Be at peace and start praying.
Take a rest, that's what you want.
Clear yourself, that's what you need.


No one will listen.
So don't bother.
Shhhhhh and stay still.
Maybe, you have to be alone.


Don't worry.
It will be okay.
You will be okay.
Everything will be okay.



/akrl

For best or not?

You laugh together, you cry together.
You get mad at the same time.
And because of your similarities but different understanding.
You end up hurting each other’s feelings.

So hurtful, right?
When you want to talk to someone you used to be with everyday.
Someone you used to share all your thoughts.
Someone you cared so much and treated as your family.

Both of you cannot control your feelings.
Without a second thought, you two chose to ignore each other.
You both need enough time to be alone. 
And sometimes you cannot figure out who is wrong, who is right.

Do you really accept each other's personalities?
Do you really know what are the do's and don'ts?
Do you really need to lie that you were okay?
Or both of you were just pretending that you understand each other?

Is it your fault? Or is it his/her fault? Or both?
Is it the right thing to do? Is it for best or not?
And you know what’s really the hardest part?
It is when one is ready to listen yet the other is not.



/akrl

That someone...

You're the luckiest.



You have that someone who will call you in the middle of the night.
You have that someone who will ask you if you're doing fine.
You have that someone who is willing to listen to your rants.
You have that someone who's really concern to you.
You have that someone who truly loves you.



How lucky you are that you have that someone and me?
I have to call them at the middle of the night and wake them up.
I have to ask them if its fine to bother them.
I have to look for those who's willing to listen to me.
I don't have that someone who's truly concern to me.
And in the end, I realized that no one loves me.



That I have nothing...



/akrl

Comfort...

A rainy night

Full of pain.

Sobbing in silence

Weeping tears.




Hugging pillow.

Need a comfort.

Cold hands,

And so your heart.




/akrl

One Fine Night.

An unexpected time and place.

Didn't know it would be him.

An unexplained happiness,

A dream come true.

One fine night, I asked my friend, Josela, to have a coffee at 9pm. She asked me what kind of coffee and where we'll going to buy. At first, I'm fine with the cafe mocha in Pande Manila but I changed my mind and answered her with a puppy eyes, "Starbucks na lang, so I can claim my 2017 SB planner." By the way, I just need two more stickers. Oh well, she's too easy to convince, unlike others. Lol! Hashtag, one of a kind, hugot, the best of best.

And so since the nearest SB branch is in Edsa Shangrila which is 15mins walk away from our apartment, we decided to go there just to satisfy our cravings. When we got there, I told her to look for a vacant seat and I'll order for us. After the cashier took my order, she asked me if I'll claim my planner so she'll punch it along with my orders but I said, "No, later ko na lang po i-claim. Tingnan ko pa po ang designs." That's it! Hahaha! Lol.

Fast forward...

When I got my orders, I looked for Josela and saw her seating in a sofa at the right corner of the cafe when you were facing the cashier area. And when I reached her, I told her that I'll go back to the cashier area to check the design and claim my planner. While waiting for my turn, someone caught my attention. He's wearing a light blue maong polo shirt but I just ignored it because it's already my turn. The cashier told me to wait in the claiming area and this familiar guy was seating near that area. He seems too serious and busy on what he's doing. I guess he's typing his recent story in wattpad. I know that site because I even posted a short story there. Hmmm. I think I know him already and someone urged me to take just a glimpse of his face. Confirmed, it's him.

Yum yum!

I can't calm, my heart beated so fast, I don't know what to do. This is unbelievable, unexpected and unimaginable. Oh ha! Hahaha! Dream come true to see him in person. That time, I really want to approach him because I'm dying to have a picture with him. Yeah, I'm not in my right mind but then I'm so shy and I'm really hesitating because I might disturb him. And then the cashier called me and gave my planner so I came back to our seat, jumping like a kid, smiling brightly. I can't explain how I feel that time. Omg!

I got it!!!

Sirens...

I even texted my friend, Ching. She like Marcelo, too. Hahaha! She told me not to disturb Marcelo because he might lose his momentum but then when I told her I really want to talk to him and ask for a picture with him, she suggested to buy him a drink with a note but I am doubtful if I can do that. What really motivated me that time are my ever supportive friends, Josela and Ching who have given me words of wisdom. Hahaha! "It's now or never. Ngayon ka pa ba mahihiya? Ilang beses na natin napagdaanan yan", they said, motivating me more. They really pushed me so hard. Aww, thank you so much. Love lots.

Let us go back to my kilig story. I have decided to approach him and fortunately, he was standing outside the comfort room waiting for his turn. At that time, I knew he needs to go home and take a rest. It's already midnight and we also need to go home because we have to wake up early and prepare for tomorrow's work. So, I brought my planner along with SB pen and approached him with full confidence. Hahaha.

Had a picture with him...

At first, I can't even think how will I approach him but I ended up saying. "Hi Kuya Em", as what those teenagers use to call him. Oh wait, I'm not teen anymore. Hahaha. He looked at me and smiled, "Oh Hi". Omg, I'm melting. I don't know if he noticed me shaking. Omg, it's unbelievable. I asked him if I can have some short inspirational words for the upcoming year from him giving my planner for him to write on.

Sweetest!

Kilig!!!

He's so friendly and not snob. I told him that we were schoolmates in PUP. He asked me what course I am taking and the branch. Hehe. Kilig moments with him are daebak. I have asked him if he likes Messi. Haha. But at that time, Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo hasn't aired yet. Had a short conversation with him then says good bye. Kyaaaaa^^ I can't really imagine. Hihihi.

Annyeong! (Bye in Korean)

Hi Marcelo Santos III, thank you so much for inspiring us. Keep on doing great things that may help us to be a better person. 사랑해요!!!




/akrl